post-pro-pastor pt.5


I used to think big, shiny buildings and dynamic pastoral staff were indicative of a healthy church-body…now I’m not so sure

if you have been following along with the past posts in this series, I applaud you

as I have mentioned before, this has been a journey and I by no means think that I have arrived anywhere yet

a couple months back, I sat down to share my heart with some very dear friends of mine

I share this with you because I think it gives a glimpse at my intention and desire that may have become clouded through earlier posts

“to be utterly honest, my soul has been feeling dry for quite some time, there has been something missing

this dryness began after a few years into ‘professional pastoring’ – there seemed to be a longing for something deeper, something more connected…something more like church

this is not a critique, but rather an acknowledgement of a deep longing that I believe most of us carry

‘church’ had become my job, following Jesus my occupation…but that can’t be, not anymore

just as I could never be paid for being Kai and Rylan’s Dad, nor receive salary for loving my wife, Brett, so I have been called to love God and the Church without compensation (or more strictly – not for compensation)


there have been many turns and twists, but this brings me to today

in the beginning of the early Church, priorities seemed to be different. I’ve been stuck on this passage for years:

Acts 2:42-47

42 They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. 43 Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. 44 All the believers were together and had everything in common. 45 They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. 46 Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts,47 praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

this is what I desire – not for my ‘likes’ because to be honest, it would be easier not to…but because I believe this is how God designed us to be

I want to love God, I want to get to know Him more, I want to develop a deeper love for Him
I want to learn more of His Word (because most times I’m confused)
I want to do this with a community of people
I want this community to eat and pray and ‘do life’ together.
I want amazing things to happen
I want to care for others
I want to want to praise God (does that make sense?)
I want others to follow Jesus

now, this may sound hokey and/or idealistic or completely diluted and I’m ok with that…because I think deep down – you want this too

I’m really sick of playing church…and I’m pretty sure it’ll be the death of my soul

I want to BE the Church, I want to live as the Church…and on top of all that – I want to do it with all you!


*if you still want to throw me under the heretical bus…do be gentle, I am fragile 

I understand that I did not provide a lot of answers to many of the questions I was posing throughout these 5 posts…my prayer is that we can continue to journey together

models and paradigms are only as effective as the people involved

one thing I’ve grown to appreciate is the quiet, faithfulness of a servant…there are many untold (and that’s the way they like it) stories about women and men who diligently serve day in and day out

may we be the leaders that follow those servants…may we be the leaders that follow THE servant

there are pictures in my mind of communities flourishing through trial, persevering through celebration and worshiping through life – I would love to show them to you…but I’m pretty sure all the elements are right around you already…may our eyes be opened to see them



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